the world keeps turning

Well, here i am, sitting down, enjoying a nice bowl of pan seared potatoes and green beans, with a bit of high fructose corn syrup ketchup that, hopefully, won't be too harmful. It is nice though, i get a day off, a day to practice mandolin and enjoy the fresh air, bake a couple loaves of bread, find out that i actually am able to pick the song 'Gentle on My Mind' by John Hartford, no matter how simply. I had no idea how I'd do at the beginning of the semester, being busy and such, but it turns out fairly well, managing to get decent hours of rest. I watched this freakin' scary movie last night called House, it definitely discouraged a writing career, and most certainly discouraged watching any scary movies ever again.

Surprisingly it was filmed in the 1980's, considering how freakin' scary it was. Fortunately I am evening that out with this: a relaxing day watching bread rise.

I made a painting a couple days ago, it is basically a very bright house with a squirrel tight rope walking above a big pool of water. It is interesting, i'm pondering whether or not to donate it to the yearly silent art auction.

Oh well, the impression of that movie will slowly fade from my mind, the bread will rise, and the world will keep on turning. I don't think there is any way the world will end, I mean, there might be some major disaster, but the chances of Earth self-destructing is very small. Yes, we are getting warmer, but Nature tends it even itself out anyway, doesn't it?

No matter how good it will do, remind yourself: the world keeps on turning. After all, it is better then thinking the world is flat.

Oh yeah...All right..Feels good..Inside..

"Your drug is a heart breaker .. My love is a life taker.."

Such beautiful lines, although who knows what the second part means.

Stamina

It is the 11 Days of Peace in Southern Illinois, possibly in areas surrounding as well. This brings to mind much nice thoughts, ha, of Peace.. And things related. It seems like the world has gotten more peaceful as the days have gone by. I say this a lot, or at least used to in high school, but as I look back through the ages it appears that the people have gotten less violent, the world more peaceful. Yes, there is corruption, pollution, and many problems of that nature still persistent in today's climate, but think of the Generations - Their progress - and where we stand 'Peacefully' today.

It is beautiful outside, I rarely see violence. In the 19 years i've been kicking, I haven't seen much violence, maybe a punch here, a kick there, but nothing serious. It could be that I was raised with spiritual values - One of the most non-religious, spiritually musical Christian denomination's: the Friends society.. and a simple Jewish temple and camp. Although through the years of adolescence and surrendering to my Mother's will, I landed in a Sufi temple, an Ashram, church, etc... I still think that all of these places provided a sound and base spiritual education, despite religious attitudes.

And so i see, in the streets, Peace. It could be this is all just an expression of Light, that I choose to see the positive in the light. After all, el Guru says that Life can be compared to a movie, with the heroes just consisting of nice colors, villains in dark colors, One concept being unable to exist without the opposite concept.. And so, as I am just traveling through the world seeing and visualizing different 'projections' of light, it could be that I just register the positive, accept the Peaceful, the benevolent...

I'm sorry for the big words, am currently in a Steno Vocabulary development class, and am quite enthusiastically working on many of the assignments! as my vocabulary is improving so also is my opinion of my intellectual capabilities! Ha. And so.. if you read this, I ask you to think about time, past present and future, and ask yourself: Is the world and the people in this world progressively becoming more peaceful, are we the same? What's going on? but don't forget the divinity and joy behind it all! And so, Merci fellow people, and good day.

'Don't think I'm a D-Bag' -Journey

Don't think I'm a d-bag! this is the song of the weekend though, played on the radio during a melancholic sunset.. must be posted.

A-part-ment

I moved into a new apartment last weekend! I've been 'in-dependent' for days now: it feels strange... but good! Although I do feel like I could be participating in more good causes, community events, etc., I do understand that I have been in this place for only 3 or 4 days, so it is understandable. Occasionally I will open the windows to the apartment and play mandolin, or I will Meditate or sing, and that will bring good vibes to the area, especially the surrounding apartments. The people around us seem really cool, although I have only met one of them, they all have decent cars with cool bumper stickers (ones like 'Swimmer' and 'Habitat for Humanity'), so they seem like good people! Although, the last 3 or 4 days the people above us party hardy, even though the guy who swims claims not to drink. Although, there is a guitar with an amp, and supposedly Gears of War, and likes of jumping - but never late at night. I caught the bus today - it was fun, good to participate in the public transportation. It actually is really nice living in an apartment, I have not conformed to the College norm of Raman noodles and Don Taco, instead I manage to open the windows and cook some black beans and the Vegetables with delicious Whole Wheat Tacos. Life is tough in the big city, says the high-school Trig teacher who once was in the army, yet I say Life is good in the big city. I am no longer in the suburbs and goody tooschoo community, and am no longer in the semi-ghetto, and have landed somehow in a College infested neighborhood, where people drink things somewhere in between Beer and Water. Fortunately, I have a guru, and am glued to the Joy that is given from him!! But, a post on here seemed essential, as I am surrounded by light posts and T.V.'s and computers, and a little bit of nature is a delicious delicacy to be enjoyed only by a deep breath and some sun salutations.

Court reporting is going well, as a Sophomore in John A. Logan I have gained a little bit more merit, and somehow landed a spot on the Internet with the name of the website being 'I the Volunteer.' And, although I would post the address for house-warming gifts, I am unable because of the possibility of, well, I DONT KNOW...

Good night all, and wish the college community of Southern Illinois good luck, for we need a lot in this kinda town.